Thursday, October 09, 2014

Bible Journaling...

So my new way I have found to spend time in God's word is Bible Journaling.  I stumbled across this concept when I saw a picture on instagram (which I rarely check) and it had my interest piqued.  So I did some research and found a whole community of amazing people that have been doing similar artwork to mine in journals and have begun to do journaling in their Bibles.  This seems like a natural concept for me since I've started taking notes in my Bible the last few years and love finding those notes and wisdoms from Bible studies and past sermons.  Combine that with my love for art journaling and it's a no brainer for me.  So here is my first few attempts at this new passion...

Tuesday, October 07, 2014

Journal update

Some of these pages are very personal to me and have a very deep story.  These were created at a time when God was REALLY speaking to me and all I could do was capture it on paper to document it and remind myself later at how amazing it was.  Some that I may share and some I may not but right now I just want to share the pages and get all caught up on updating my good 'ol blog;)

Friday, July 11, 2014

I Surrender All

I did this page a couple weeks ago and couldn't find the right words or verse to put on it.  I just had an achy heart to wasn't until I heard Beth Moore speaking about "longing" that I found this verse and it all began to make sense.

So on July 6th, I surrendered my heart and answered the call to ministry.  As soon as the decision was made in my heart, that longing I ad been feeling...that was gone.  Now replaced with butterflies...anxious to see what God has planned for me.

When I felt that tug at my heart...that call pulling me to ministry, all I could think was...really God?  ME?  No!  It's not mea you want.  I can't do this.  But he just kept reassuring me.  He kept prompting me.  Until my faith finally stole my doubt!  (Title is from the Warren Barfield, "It's All Good")

So speaking of my trip to see Beth Moore, it was amazing.  Absolutely life changing.  If you ever have an opportunity to see her speak, GO.

Friday, July 04, 2014

Be the change

So God revealed this scripture to me twice recently for the same struggles at the exact time I needed to see these words.  And since last week at camp with our youth students, I vowed to be "unchained" and free from those doubts and insecurities...I'm letting it go and allowing God to set me free from it.

These are a couple more journal pages I did this week...
"Be the Sunshine" - This quote spoke to me from the Angela Thomas "Brave" study.

This next one is so powerful for me.
"Be the change you want to see"
The last few months I've been feeling like I had no purpose.  I've been feeling beat up and steamrolled.  Honestly thinking something was horribly wrong.  Missing even.  Unloved and like I had nothing left to offer.  But God is changing something in me.  Stirring me.  Telling me to get up, refresh my spirit and be the light he wants me to be.

Monday, June 23, 2014

Youth Camp 2014!!

This week was a journey and I had a great time!  Hopefully I was able to impact the lives of these amazing students but one thing is for sure, I learned a lot about myself.  We went to Shocco Springs in Alabama and the facility was awesome. 

My beautiful roomies
...and phone jacked on the van trip there.

While there I still took the time to work in my art journal during my quiet time.  I was asked to quiz the students in my group on the daily verse and for me I'm not good at memorizing scripture (or anything else for that matter).  But for some reason this verse stuck with me.  I wrote it on my arm and just focused on it all day and before I knew it, I had it. 

Our evening worship time with the students was so wonderful!

I feel so blessed to have been able to experience this with my husband, working side by side to impact these students.

Sunday, June 15, 2014


Searching for my place...and journaling while I'm at it

"A time for everything"

"Bloom where you're planted"


"Live to enjoy the light"

"Fruits of the spirit"

"I am worn out"

Friday, May 30, 2014

Journal Therapy

A little journal therapy;)

So earlier this month we went to a marriage event where Warren Barfield was singing and heard the song "Redbird" for the first time.  It totally made me cry!  It was written to his wife as a love song because of the redbird's dedication and loyalty.  Even in the dead of winter and mounds of snow the redbird never migrates or leaves.  It resonated with me.  It made me think of my childhood dreams of dancing with my husband at my wedding to "Lady in Red" and the poem I wrote to him about how Chinese culture says a woman in red is destined for a happy marriage.  It brought to mind the coincidence that the bird is the symbol I use for my children and my "flock"...I have them tattooed on my body and I even called Liam my baby bird when I was pregnant.  Then the natural connection of the dedication stated in 1 Corinthians 13:7 came to mind.  We read these verses at our wedding.  So much meaning to me.  I love my redbird and I'm gonna be his...forever and I thank God for sending him to me every single day I wake up with air in my lungs.

"Intention" is based on my search for a more intention and personal life.  I've been reading a book called "Notes from a Blue Bike".  Now if you know me, you know I don't read so this takes a lot for me and when I say I'm reading it I mean VERY slowly and prolly won't finish it!  LOL!  Anyway, I've even concluded that God even called us to live intentionally when he asked us to "remain in him".  This too calls for intention. 

The anchor has always been close to my heart.  It has always been a symbol for my husband because he was my rock.  The anchor for our family.  But in reality, our hoe is in the fact that together we are anchored in Christ.  While my husband may "ground" me and serve as my anchor in the sense...Christ is where I anchor my hope and it is an anchor for my soul.

"Patience & Change"
This one was starting to get personal.  I'm undergoing lots of change in this season in my life and waiting on God to reveal some things to me that I feel tugging at my heart so strongly.  It's tough but that's where the patience comes in.  I'm patiently waiting as he he changes me.

Thursday, May 15, 2014

A new artistic & spiritual journey

Embarking on a new artistic and spiritual journey.  Over the last few months I feel like God is trying to get my tell me something so I have decided to start an prayer journal in the form of an art journal.  I'm not a traditional journal kinda gal.  Writing just does not come easily to me.  But I love paper and paper crafts so here we go.  I've been dabbling around with watercolors and I'm totally in love.  Here is my cover and first few pages.

For the "Trials" page, I had had a particularly hard morning when I when to God in prayer during my quiet time and asked God to reveal himself in his word to me...this what he gave me.  Job 1:12.   I think God was trying to remind me that he has my back and I have "first world problems"!  LOL

Friday, March 28, 2014

The fake smile.

What is fake?  I struggle with the idea of people being perceived as fake, especially in the church.  This has been on my heart for some time now and I had this whole thing typed and ready to post when I hesitated.  It sparked a long conversation between a good friend and I.  But I held on to my words thinking I did not need to share…until last night’s Bible study.  We are doing a study by Angela Thomas called “Living Life as a Beautiful Offering”  and what did she talk about this week?  The fake smile.  Yup.  How we have all gotten so good at it.  How we go through the motions and put it on so no one sees our truth.  Our brokenness.  Our hardships.  Our hurts.  We want so much for someone to see past that smile and just scoop us up and know what’s on our hearts but we bury our struggles for whatever reason.  Pride, shame, or for some, just not wanting to be a burden on others.  The point is, we don’t know what’s behind that smile.  We don’t know the driver behind why they hide their struggles.  Only God knows their pain and hardships and he wants them to come to him with it.  He wants to cut right through that fake smile and into their soul  and comfort them. 
So when I see that smile, I know it all too well.  Yes I smile a lot.  Heck I’ve got a lot to smile about.  I’m very blessed.  But I smile just as much because I’m pushing down a hardship too.  A hurt.  Brokenness. 

So what is fake?  Is it fake when you turn on a smile and take a deep breath and walk in a public place…anywhere, much less a church?  I say no.  Why?  Well because I don’t see a fake smile.  I see struggles.  I see real as real can be.  I see reality because at any given point I have been or may be right there in those shoes, with that same forced smile.  I see the single mother struggling to get homework done, supper cooked, baths taken, ball games, dance practices and bed times met,  I see the father without work trying to figure out how he is gonna make ends meet for his family this week, I see the woman writhing in pain over a disease that has taken over her young body, I see the addict that is struggling to overcome an addiction so he smiles as to not draw attention as he prays to God to take this from him,  I see an embarrassed mother dealing with a toddler in the middle of a tantrum,  I see men and women leaving their own families week after week to reach out to do ministries for other people’s children and other men & women just to try to make an impact and effect change in the lives of others despite illness and pain that is going on at home.  And all the while, I see smiles on these people’s faces…  Why?  Not because there is not hardships in their lives.  Because they are happy in Christ.  They have chosen to press forward.  To cast their burdens on him.   To not carry them on their own.  To not burden others with them.  To be a light to the world.   If that is fake, sign me up.   In my discussion with my friend they brought up a valid point, what about those that appear to be one in one environment (at church for example) and another way somewhere else (like at work)?  Well to that I say perhaps they are being who they strive to be, the best version of themselves at church or in the positive environment they are comfortable in and then when they are not in an environment where they feel  supported they don’t feel as strong.  They want to be but they are just not there yet…it doesn't mean they don’t want to or that they aren’t trying…maybe they just aren’t there yet.  We are all on our journey.  We all struggle.

Saturday, February 15, 2014

The test

"Behold, how happy is the man whom God reproves, so do not despise the discipline of the Almighty" -Job 5:17 (NASB)

You ever feel like God is testing you?  Even taking things and people you love from you?   That's not God, just the opposite actually.  That's the enemy, Satan.  And why does God allow this to happen to us?  To draw us closer to make us open our eyes and look up.  Some may think your suffering is because you did something wrong or because you weren't living right but that's not necessarily the case.  Ever heard the saying "He's got the patience of Job!"  Well Job is a real dude...a blameless, God fearing dude according to the Bible and guess what...he suffered.  A lot.  Our God is a God of grace.  He just wants a relationship with us.  So when you are suffering just know that he see you.  He is with you.  Just look up.